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I was young
Maybe thirteen
Kids started asking
"Are you a lesbian?"

I wore no make up
My hair was cut short
They wouldn't believe me
No matter how much I swore

Day after day
I heard the same thing
They all told me
"Ur so gay!"

At first I didn't believe them
At first I didn't see
I didn't wanna think
They knew me better than me

Several years later
I've finally come to see
I do indeed like girls
But guys will always do it for me!
©2009-2010 ~krystalraven
:iconkrystalraven:

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Song title for poem title thing

This is very much a true story. Back in Junior high, right before I started 6th grade I chopped all my hair off. I regretted it before I even left the salon. However when I started school kids started asking me if I was a lesbian. I had no idea what the word meant. Then I found out and oddly enough even back then the idea wasn't repulsive to me. I think I always knew I was bisexual. It wasn't til years later, around the age of 17 I think, that I really 'labeled' myself as bi. I didn't wanna admit it to anyone but then when my best friend came out to me it made it sort of ok for me to confide in him. Ever since then I've been ok with my sexuality. I think having someone accept me the way I am, especially the first person I told, really helped. Made me see that yea there are other people who think like me and won't shun me from the world.

It was a whole different story though when I tried to tell my family a year or so later...

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Nice. This poem is very deep and good. :D Shame kids are like that and judge you based on looks.

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I think there is something a little too self conscious about enjoying being an outsider



the greatest comic artist and creator of Invader Zim Jhonen Vasquez
:iconspashleylove:
I love this poem...I still have not gotten the courage to tell my fam. that I like girls though because I know for a fact that they would kick me out. Seeing as how my dad tells me like every other day that he would.

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"I'm in love with a girl I hate,
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me,
I'm in love with a critic and a skeptic,
I'd trad her, I'd trade her in a second"


*~*~*~*~She's a Lady, Forever the Sickest Kids~*~*~*~*
:iconkrystalraven:
Yea I know. I hate how kids are so judgemental. The thing is...some adults are like that too. It's like they never grow out of that phase...

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:cd: music is...a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy :tunes:

:bookdiva: poetry is the rhythmical creation of beauty :butterflytwo:

:music: one definiton of poetry is any utterance that sings in short space :stereo:
:iconkrystalraven:
That's a sticky situation.

Hmmm sounds like your dad may not like the idea but what about your mom? Would she be anymore open to the idea? Maybe talk to her first and then have her talk to your dad. Maybe she could calm him down or something.

If not your parents and you decide you really have to come out to them, do you have an aunt or uncle that you're close to that might be open to the idea? What about grandparents (though grandparents are probably a longer shot than parents just because of the generation thing).

The most I could think of to tell you besides that is to just remain calm. Try not to let your emotions take over if you decide you have to tell them. I know something like that happened with me. I decided that I had to come out, I couldn't stand hiding anymore...especially since at the time I had my first girlfriend.

Believe me I went about it all wrong and let my emotions get the best of me. Boy was that a bloody mess.

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:cd: music is...a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy :tunes:

:bookdiva: poetry is the rhythmical creation of beauty :butterflytwo:

:music: one definiton of poetry is any utterance that sings in short space :stereo:
:iconspashleylove:
A sticky situation indeed.

Nope mom is just as bad as dad, but I'm not really worried about it...I only have one more year until college then I can tell them because it won't matter if they kick me out. Although they might not pay for college but I can get student loans if I need to...I will probably have to anyways. lol

One of my aunts know she is cool with it...she actually guessed all on her own lol...that was an awkward conversation to say the least.

Thanks for the advice it always helps to know i'm not the only person who is going through this

Are your parents ok with it now?

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"I'm in love with a girl I hate,
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me,
I'm in love with a critic and a skeptic,
I'd trad her, I'd trade her in a second"


*~*~*~*~She's a Lady, Forever the Sickest Kids~*~*~*~*
:iconkrystalraven:
Ha no. My dad is still in the dark-I never told him, we don't have a good relationship (that's a massive understatement). And if I did he would disown me.

I've been with a guy for over two years now so there's no reason to shove it in my mom's face. I make comments like "oh she's hot" but I think my mom just brushes it aside. I think she just chooses to forget...total denial. She's been that way ever since I first told her she's been that way. Even tried to forbid me to talk to my girlfriend at the time.

No one else in my family knows. I chose to keep it under wraps for sake of peace and because I am dating a guy. =-P

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:cd: music is...a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy :tunes:

:bookdiva: poetry is the rhythmical creation of beauty :butterflytwo:

:music: one definiton of poetry is any utterance that sings in short space :stereo:
:iconspashleylove:
That sucks but so would my dad. Which really is the mane reason that I have not told him; because we are so close that I would die if he disowned me. Yes, I am aware that the statement above is melodramatic. Sorry lol, I was yelling at myself in my head for being melodramatic, it's a quality I generally dislike.

I hate when people do that...I told one of my friends at school and she just kind of brushed it off...then she had the audacity to ask me the next day when I planned on getting a bf.! I mean really I almost hit her. :) I bet it was worse for you, seeing it was your mom though.

That's another reason I have not come out yet. I figure if I'm not dating anyone why cause trouble.

Sorry I tend to ramble when I have not slept...happens a lot lol Insomnia's a bitch. :P

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"I'm in love with a girl I hate,
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me,
I'm in love with a critic and a skeptic,
I'd trad her, I'd trade her in a second"


*~*~*~*~She's a Lady, Forever the Sickest Kids~*~*~*~*
:iconkrystalraven:
lol it's ok ramble all you want ^_^ I tend to have the same issue hehe. Yea my mom and I are pretty close too but she's always told me that she could never disown me or anything like that so...I think even if I did push the issue she'd eventually deal with it and be ok.

I got to thinking too...if your dad brings it up on his own? There's a good chance that he already knows. Perhaps your aunt talked to him? Or maybe, like your aunt, he guessed it by himself. It happens.

Oh and yes I would've slapped that person too. ^_^ I've been lucky that way I think...just about all my friends have atleast accepted it. That may not like it but they don't say anything negative about it and just accept me how I am.

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:cd: music is...a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy :tunes:

:bookdiva: poetry is the rhythmical creation of beauty :butterflytwo:

:music: one definiton of poetry is any utterance that sings in short space :stereo:
:iconspashleylove:
I never thought about it that way lol...maybe he has guess though because he brings it up quit a bit.

Lol all of my friends except for her accepted it right away, she finally accepted it though it just took her a little longer. I think I shocked her...I'm the youngest in my class down to the day. So they sometimes look at me like a little sister that needs protecting...Plus it does not help that I live in a town with a population of 2500-3000 people counting the outlying country lol

--
"I'm in love with a girl I hate,
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me,
I'm in love with a critic and a skeptic,
I'd trad her, I'd trade her in a second"


*~*~*~*~She's a Lady, Forever the Sickest Kids~*~*~*~*

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